Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Letting Go continues...

Although it is Wednesday, I wanted to give a little recap about yesterday's adventure. I left Jonah at "school". I call it "school" because it makes me feel better. He still had a wide-eyed look, and he wasn't my same smiley baby. I cried harder leaving that day than the first time! I tortured myself by peeking through the windows where no one knew I was looking. He was just staring at his hands in the bouncy seat. Where did my joyful baby go?
I called around 12pm that day to check on him. "It's me...again", I said. Of course, they were as nice as they could be. A miracle happened, for Jonah slept IN THE CRIB for an hour! He hates sleeping in the crib during the day. If it is night, he will go right to bed. That was a huge milestone:)
Patrick picked him up as usual, and Jonah gave him that big "AH HAH!" look and smile. He has a little snort/laugh/weird noise he makes when he sees us. I will have to capture this on camera soon.
Today, Wednesday, I left him and felt at peace. I'm not sure what changed in just three days. Perhaps, it is because he has lost that "deer in the headlights" look. Today, I put him in a swing before I left. I could tell he was very tired. He looked at me and raised his eyebrows. I could almost hear him saying, "Ok, Mom, why are you still here? I am in good hands, and I'd like to get back to focusing on this swing and my fingers." Well, I left, shed no tears, and arrived to work on time.
This week is full of firsts:)

5 comments:

Charbelle said...

I was reading this and Romans 8:28 popped into my head. "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,who have been called according to his purpose". I can't imagine how tough this week has been on all 3 of you. I'm so glad that it's getting slightly easier!

Anne Michelle Feyer said...

Glad you didn't cry today! =) I wanted to cry reading your post yesterday because I can't imagine dropping Addisyn off like that! I'll be praying for ya girl!

Anonymous said...

That made me cry....I am so happy God is giving you peace and Jonah is adjusting. He is just a precious little boy to so many of us.

Lauren said...

Awesome! So glad today was better and that Jonah is adjusting! (and that you are too!) I will continue to pray for you! When Patrick is off of work in the summer, will Jonah be with him or in the daycare?

The Three Sams said...

thanks to all of you! who is anonymous? just curious:)